Last Christmas

There was snow.

I was thinner.

I was younger.

I was less worried about the future.

I was with my family.

I did not know that my Dad was ill.  And neither did he.

I didn't feel so empty and alone.

...and on the other hand...

I had not made so many wonderful new friends through blogging, twitter and Facebook.

I had not been to a ball.

Angel had not survived and celebrated her final school exams.

She had not enjoyed her post exam holiday and her Debs.

Aspie boy had not gone through months of meltdowns so bad that I almost didn't know who he was any more.  But once we got some help, he became a different child, settled into his new class and became my rock following the death of my Dad last month.

We'd only had 14 years of smiles and giggles from my very special girl :)

...that was last Christmas.  This year it's for the kids...


  1. What a lovely positive and reflective post Blue Sky. I hope it gives you the sense of balance that it portrays.
    May you and your gorgeous kids have a heartwarming Christmas :-)

    xx Jazzy

  2. I am sorry about your dad :(
    I hope that your Christmas is a special one for you and your family.

    I am passing on this blog to you (and you too Jazzy!).

    It is written by an awesome Aussie (with Irish roots!). I think she is wonderful and I am sure that you will enjoy her blog posts. Let me know what you think!

    Best wishes

  3. I'm so sorry about the loss of your dad. I'm glad you can still reflect on some good things this year. Wishing you a a truly wonderful Christmas.

  4. I bet this Christmas will bring its own surprises and joys you never even thought of. I look forward to reading about your special time with your wonderful children. Relax and enjoy. xxx

  5. @Jazzygal - and I'm hoping that you have a wonderful and stressfree Christmas xx

    @Di - and a Happy Christmas to you too and thanks for recommending the blog, I will go over and explore :)

    @Grumpy Grateful Mom - thank you so much for popping by and commenting, I really appreciate it.

    @Midlife Singlemum - I hope it will for everyone xx

  6. What a thoughtful post, Blue Sky. Perspective.

    Hope your Christmas dinner is working out...xo

  7. @TherExtras - thank you, and apparently I have to post about the Christmas dinner, soon...

  8. Such a wonderful thoughtful post - so lovely to reflect on the year like that. Hope you had a wonderful Christmas xx

  9. Lovely to visit your blog again. Am just re-emerging from a bit of hibernation as my own Dad eventually passed away on December 16th. I know we have shared this experience in 2011 and so I appreciate how hard this Christmas must have been for you. It's a funny old thing the thud in the stomach when you wake up and realise that it's still another day of grief even if it is Christmas Day! Anyway spring is out there somewhere and light will return. Much love to you and your gorgeous family, I feel I know them at this stage. Thanks for the love you share, we all get to benefit, I hope you do too:~) X

  10. @SAHMlovingit - it was pretty good xx

    @Foxglovelane - I'm so so very sorry that you have lost your Dad and thank you so much. Visiting your blog and losing myself in your wonderful photographs helps me too, and I'm sure many other people as well x